Honorable

     Dear Reader,
I want to start off by saying I'm very unsatisfied with the person I've been in my past. Many of my last blogs suck total dick and disappoint me. I really try hard to be a very well rounded person. I take interest in hundreds of amazing things in life. Many would tell me that's too many. A lot of people tell me not to try and appease others and to just be myself, even if it is at the cost of the respect of my peers. I do not wish to lose their respect, I don't want them to stop criticizing me and giving me a challenge. I love the challenge. But I want an honorable friend that respects me just as much as I respect them. I am the same person to every single person I meet. I tell them the straight up truth or at least imply it. But I also know when to a respect a person for their good qualities. I'm disappointed in some of my close friends because they occasionally make me snap. I get depressed, I lose myself, and all of my beliefs. I can never be pure. I become weak, and blame others, blame my past, and blame the system. I hate it when I do that. It's so disrespectful to all the effort of everyone else. I should be proud of myself to a point, but if someone criticizing my actions, they can, and they will. I should not let it bother me, and there are no excuses. I only have one thing to say. If you're going to give me hell, why don't you show me a little respect in the manner of praise, pride, and respect in who I am as a person? I get it from no one, not even my parents. So for every five times you give me shit and piss me off, you should tell me OR at least fucking show me how much you appreciate our friendship. At least then I can rest and ultimately stop over thinking everything. I've said it before, honesty is my policy and honestly, I appreciate almost all of my friends. I just wish I didn't turn into such a bitch that complains to all of you when I feel really disrespected. Thanks for reading.
Sincerely, Bard