The first week.

This will be my first post. The purpose of this blog is to highlight my feelings of when I'm feeling upset. I tend to overreact too much to things that are no big deal and that's where I get the title of this blog.

Dear reader,
     Today is the Sunday after my first week of senior year in high school. Before the week began was the first time I've ever been excited and optimistic about school. I always used to be the kind of person that never looked forward to going to school and would always avoid dealing with people. Now I'm the exact opposite, but there's still a problem: I still suck at dealing with people.
     My first day was significantly different from the rest during the week. I was completely oblivious as to the attitudes of other kids that day. I never even considered what they were thinking. Many seemed to be in their serious modes. I was completely optimistic and ready to conquer the school with a strong positive attitude. I realized this day was different because of how my interaction with Kayla was. The first day I really had a lot of material to work with and I talked to her like she was one of my best friends. The problem was that the rest of the week my enthusiasm talking to this girl really died down and I really don't understand why. I want that vibe back that we first had, it was really fun, I assume she misses it too. I don't know how I did it. How do you get that best friends feel, especially with girls?
    My government class placed me in an interesting position near Abby, who I originally met in 8th grade. I've never had a good reputation in front of this girl but I found that it was really easy for me to talk to her. I'd say it was an extremely meh experience though. The most important part was the last day where we were to group up and work on assignment. For some damned reason she decided to belt out that she wanted to work with "someone smart." I honestly think this is a really stupid thing to ask for but I took it as an excuse to attempt to group with her. Why not? I'd get the assignment done regardless of whether I worked with a friend or someone I didn't know. I wanted to take this as an opportunity to work with someone I barely knew. Hilariously she tried to sit with my much more attractive friend Gentara, whom just exists. Unfortunately for her, my other friend Endow nabbed him before she could get up and make an excuse not work with me. She nervously said she would just work with Jeremy's keeper, a guy she's known for years. I don't know what was so inconvenient to her about working with me, we sit right next to each other and I have a smile on my face. This pretty much made the day for all of my friends. I figure I'd write her off as not worth the effort, what do you think?
      I went to the first home football game and really enjoyed the first half, and met some cool new people. I was ignoring all the downers and conversations that didn't include me and was doing what I wanted. After half time the band went on break for third quarter and got drinks and snacks. This is when I spent time talking to them. I don't know if you have ever seen a girl wave at you and say "I'm hyper!" with a big smile on her face. I hadn't seen this for a while so I just took this as an invitation to try something new. I decided to get up and say "I know a cure for hyperness!" "How about a hug?" I don't think this was taken very well and maybe she wasn't that type of person but I got called out on it by one of my good friends. It made me freeze up and feel terrible for the rest of the game. Something so silly, and so simple. I just didn't have anything to say to anyone for the remainder of the game. I figure that's an overreaction to something that really isn't that big of a deal. I want to know how I'm supposed to overcome those feelings and get my enthusiasm and optimism back in just a matter of 5 minutes tops.
     Sincerely, Bard.